So I'm having kind of an internal crisis, and I'm not completely sure what to do, or even how to feel about it. So, I'd appreciate some help.

Recently, I've been in a rather good mood.
Not rare, not very different, not surprising. I like to think of myself as a happy kind of person. I am full to the max with HATE, but at the same time, I'm really a very happy girl.
But, this kind of happy is a very depressing kind of happy.
I've heard how when people are dying, they feel very kind of happy and at peace and calm and all that, and oddly, that's how I've been feeling.
Coupled with that is a very prominent desire to stop living.
I'm not depressed, like I said, so I don't really have any REASON to want to stop being alive aside from the fact that everything just seems so boring to me. Every day is just a repetition of the last with a few minor changes.
I understand that I'm only sixteen years old, and as everyone says 'I've got my whole life ahead of me', but honestly, at this point what's ahead of me doesn't exactly look all that appealing.
I've also heard 'ermanent solution to a temporary problem.'
The PROBLEM with that, though, is that I don't have a problem.
Honestly, if I were to die right now, I'd be a hundred times happier than I am sitting here alive wasting my life on nothing.
I've considered the possibility of 'going out and trying something new' or 'getting a hobby', but honestly there's nothing I'm especially impassioned about.
Even everything I like seems stale and boring now, and I'm becoming increasingly jaded, which is depressing for someone my age. I can't look around and see the positive anymore like I used to be so proud of being able to do. I hate everything I see and half of everyone around me, and the future looks just as bleak.
I haven't exactly lived my life to the fullest, I kind of just went where the wind blew me.
I never really hung out with the kinds of people I wanted to hang out with (save for a short time that ended when I inevitably got bored of them like I'm so depressingly prone to doing), I've never done the kinds of things I wanted to do, and I haven't experienced things that most other people HAVE.
Despite that, I've remained HAPPY through my entire life. I've always managed to be content with what I had and who I was with just enough to keep me going.
Unfortunately, somehow, that's changed and for the last long while there's been nothing I've been able to do about it.
I'm growing increasingly troubled with my mental state, which isn't adding to the good side of things, either. I honestly believe I'm going crazy, and that just makes the future look quite a bit worse.
So.
What?
What do I do?
What do I make of this?
How can I get my life back on track in some form, so I don't hate everything?
Do you know anywhere I can get good medication so I stop feeling so completely and totally mentally disturbed?
Failing all of that, what's a fabulous way to kill myself? Because if I go out, I either want to go out in a quick, painless, totally un-humiliating way, OR, I want to make a big bang and scare the shit out of dozens of onlookers.
You know.
Just so I can make the mark in history I feel I so rightly deserve.
I've kind of considered hanging myself in a tree near my house in the next few days so people will think I'm a Halloween decoration for a while, just like that one lady.
But I dunno if I'm ready to make any decisions just yet, and so if I want to do that one, I'll have to wait till next year.
ANYWAY, this is going on rather long, so I'll wrap it up.
If anyone wants to chill or whatever, now might be a good time. I'm in a pretty good mood so I won't be mopey and depressing like I sometimes am. Also, WHAT THE FUCK IS EVERYONE DOING FOR HALLOWEEEEN? Aside from advice as to what to do with my waste-of-a-life, let me know your super awesome sexy Halloween plans <3
I'm not doing anything so if you tell me some awesome stuff I'll just live through you this year =]
ANYWAY BUHBYE AND I LOVE YOU AND STUFF. LOOK FORWARD TO ME DELETING THIS JOURNAL IN 2 WEEKS WHEN I INEVITABLY HATE MYSELF FOR WHINING TO THE INTERNET AND WANT TO DELETE ALL EVIDENCE THAT I'VE DONE IT.